I am motivated by and aspire to be Superwoman.
I am and have always been motivated by people who have achieved excellence in numerous areas of their lives. I always viewed the world as big and opportunities as limitless. I felt that I could and should do everything (and do it well) and always valued that in others. In my view - it is much easier to be really successful at 1 thing than it is to be really successful at multiple things- and therefore that became my goal. When I was in school - I was a great student, president of numerous clubs, involved in many activities outside .. and it felt great. I loved the feeling of "juggling" and keeping all balls in the air. As a result - role models are Superwomen (people like Julianne Malveaux, Gwen Boyd, Susan Taylor, Oprah, etc). who excel at public service, family, leadership, work, home, sports, etc. Further, because of my early exposure and friendship with many of these woman (by virtue of my involvement Delta Sigma Theta and many of my AMAZING friends), I viewed this multi-disciplinary success as truly attainable.
So I know this is problematic and probably the source of my addiction to activity - and my feeling of inadequacy. I was fortunate to have early academic and career success - but never celebrated it because it was not enough. I was fortunate to have early leadership positions in many organizations - but never really celebrated because in my mind it was not enough. I have always had incredibly unrealistic expectations for myself and unfortunately others. As I approach my big birthday and "come into my own" I am coming to terms with the fact that I can't nor do I want to do everything (nor everything exceedingly well). Plus I am just bad at many things. Although I still value the art of the juggle, I need to be ok with the idea of having fewer balls.