So I am literally going stir crazy.
I am feeling good today – getting around quite well. But I need to get outside… soon . I’m really about to go crazy….
I know there is a lesson for me to learn out of all of this.. I know it.
I’m struggling to feel good about this decision. I am looking forward to the day when I can walk normally let alone do a little jog. I have decided to hold off on the left leg until I’m feeling better about the right leg.
So by the way – here is what I had done…..
1) Tendon rebuild – also called a tendon debridement . Part of my patellar tendon was missing due to damage. So the OS removed the damaged part and stitched together the remaining tendon in an effort to make it stronger. This was done with an incision
2) Chondroplasty – This was a procedure to correct chondromalacia and synovial plica (extra tissue under knee cap-). This procedure was done via arthroscopy.
I fully expected to be healed by now (or at least walking normally) but no such luck.
This has been an incredibly humbling experience in that I am learning that I cannot do everything – even if I want to. And it is totally ok to outsource or better yet – let some things go. It has been frustrating looking at something that needs to be done and not being able to do it.
All in all – I’m finding I am prone to be a little mopey these days. Not woe is me – but I think I am having endorphin rush withdrawal. I miss that feeling and I think it is messing on a chemical level..
Anyway – I know this is temporary and I’ll feel better soon.