1205 calories consumed*
613 net daily calories
*my daily target is 1500 consumed... which would allow a daily calorie deficit of 780 calories. This is in line with my target of a -2+ lb loss per week.
From a nutrition perspective, today was a bit challenging. I'm always challenged when I'm home - because I get antsy and/or anxious. My plan was to have breakfast with a friend and then work on my home office. When breakfast fell through - I had to think through my eating plan at home. I decided to have a low cal egg white fritatta. It was fully loaded - with sun dried tomatoes, chicken, spinach and my absolute favorite seasoning : rosemary and garlic. I used Egg Whites (from the carton). Lunch and dinner became more challenging - I had a protein shake and chicken breast for lunch. While I was working on the office... I came down for a break and B had Tortilla Chips and salsa. I have to say that these are the most delicious - but absolutely the worst tortilla chips you can have. They are not baked and are so delicious that you know after one bite, that they are bad for you. At 180 calories for just 13 chips... I knew I couldn't have more than 3. It was hard to resist not having more..but I did. Later in the evening, as a family we went out to a local mall/food court to hear a the Northwest Gospel Jazz Band (which by the way did not play one gospel song :-| but hey we are in the Northwest) . While there, B had a chicken fajita and I shared his sauteed onions and beans. I also had a cup of egg drop soup. All told - while challenging , I still remained under my daily caloric goal.
For my workout - I got the crazy idea to head over to the Bikram Yoga studio. It has been at least 2 years since I've been to this yoga studio and at least 15 months since I've done Bikram. I did it a few times in San Diego - but not consistently. The good news is that not only did I manage to stay in the class - but I did all of the poses and didn't need to stop:). The bad news is that my body is totally different than the last time I did it. So my mind remembered the poses but my body has fat in places that make it difficult to completely do the poses. Mentally - this is a bummer and I wanted to crumble...but I kept telling myself "you are here and that is good". A few examples:
This pose is called Eagle Pose.... this was so much easier to do when I didn't have 40lbs of extra flab. I used to love this pose because I could do it very easily and hold it the entire time. Now I couldn't wrap my bottom leg all the way around. I will ! Bikram Hot Yoga burns 7 calories a minute so at 90 minutes it was 592. I think it was probably more because the 7 c calculation is probably based on a normal weight person.
Anyway -- I am feeling good about today . I'm accepting myself today and trying really hard to not compare myself to my old self. I'm accepting that my body has had health challenges and that I'm a few years older, but I'm not allowing any excuses. Excuses are tools of the weak and incompetent and I am neither. ...Until tomorrow